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2/10/2009 25 Random Things About Me (with no tags) from FacebookI didn't tag people because it makes this a chain letters see (#9 and #1), I won't make this one of them.
1. I hate spam, and I don't mean the food.
2. I was saved April 4, 1993.
3. I'm diagnosed bipolar, and was told I'd be on meds the rest of my life. I've been off them, functional since 2002.
4. I use to live in Brighton England for a few years.
5. I LOVE my job.
6. I love being busy, and yes am a workaholic, even when sleeping I'm thinking of things to do, got a notepad by my bed.
7. I love to cook and clean, and I'm great at both.
8. Steak and fish is my best dinners, my brother Guy even stole my fish recipe.
9. I despise chain letters, even if they CLAIM to be of religious form. There is no such thing as a religious chain letter, you pass it on you are supporting sin.
10. I can't stand lies or liars. Like Pat said to me once when I turned to her about another "being lied to is pretty much the same as stealing, since they steal your trust, and that is very hard to recover. "
11. If I had to do my life all over again I wouldn't change a thing. The road I've been on has made me who and what I am. I am pleased with it, though I am not pleased with the sin I commit.
12. My sister ruined me on being excited about my brother's having children. She popped out a child every 2 years and had loads of miscarriages between them. The excitement was gone when another one came along. And I'm sad about that because all newborns are precious.
13. Everything I learn I try to pass on.
14. I love skunks, and think they make the best pets ever.
15. I have the gift of prophesy, and it's very strong, as much as a blessing it is, it has also been a curse.
16. I love geeks, nerds and trekkies. The smarter the person the more I enjoy their company. I thrive on learning something new everytime I speak to someone.
17. I believe the moon landing was filmed on a sound stage at area 51. (Why else does google earth block it out.) This means I don't believe we landed on the moon.
18. My favorite color is pink.
19. The biggest influence in my life is my cousin Sue. She's helped me through grief recovery, and finding myself in Christ. I walked over to her house the very day I got saved. We've worked together, played together, and prayed together. I'm blessed to have her in my life. She's more then a cousin, she's a sister.
20. I've been best friends with Kim for over 20 years now. And even when I moved to England, we still spoke.
21. I don't trust easily.
22. When I say I love you, I mean it. I don't use those words lightly. Though they have been said to me, doesn't mean I will say them back. Love, like respect, is earned. When I say it, you feel it, because I mean it.
23. I love mail, especially packages!
24. I had a kidney stone when I was 16, one removed by surgery and one I passed a few days later.
25. I hate asking for help. It's extremely hard on me because I'm so use to doing things on my own. When I do finally ask for help, it's often too late, and I'm in pain either physically or mentally. So each time I try to push myself to ask for help before it gets to that point, when I don't get help or get very little, I become discouraged, angry, and sad. And often it pushes me back from asking for help again. Everyone needs help.
2/1/2009 Hamsters, Annika's and MeWhat a horrid 3 weeks. Dwarfy died, natural old age causes. I went to Pet Supplies Plus and purchased Tabika. A young black bear hamster, not a teddy bear but a roar roar bear. On the way home she kept yelling and growling. I had never had a hamster that did this in all my life. Well, stupidly I introduced Hammika to Tabika. I should have waited.
Tabika became sick, and thankfully the receipt said 7 days and I can get a refund or another hamster. On the 6th day, I called the pet store, told them the receipt I have is shredded but I have it and was in the middle of creating it. They looked up the purchase told me to bring her in and get a refund. I had done a lot of research as I noticed on the 4th day she was sick. I looked up on the net to discover that she had wet tail. When I took Tabika back to the store, she was near death and I chose to believe they were able to save her. The manager told me that all their black bear hamsters had wet tail. They apologized, gave me a refund and took Tabika back to the vet. She’s dead though, because she was so young she didn’t have a chance. That was just this past week.
Last night Hammika looked like she had wet tail but it was her period. This morning I picked up Hammika to say hello, as I always do, to discover she had wet tail. I’ve been treating her, but they claim 24 – 48 hours after signs they die because they have been fighting it for 7 days. Hammika is a healthy hamster, and I did catch it in time, because her eyes aren’t covered in puss like Tabika’s was. There is no 100% cure for wet tail, but I’m into herbs and such, I have a few ideas. Every time she moves I pick her up and give her something to drink since dehydration is the leading cause of death with wet tail. They also say that after a hamster gets wet tail and appears cured they still die shortly there after. I believe if I can cure her, I can maintain her health with daily treatment.
I’m so tired, and stressed. I’ve not slept well since all this crap started 3 weeks ago. It’s why I’ve not written in a while.
I’ve also been very busy working on Annika’s. Thankfully, Annika’s is sorted. I’ve even created a facebook fan page. http://www.facebook.com/pages/Annikas/46962093305 9/18/2008 Falsehoods against me addressedI've been doing a lot of thinking, research, and praying.
There are certain people who have nothing better to do then spread lies, and gossip about me. I've not had the need to defend myself because my actions speak for themselves. My facebook, myspace, blogs, Annika's, voice overs, emails etc all show the evidence, that if I was indeed some horrible person, there would be proof of it. And not just users gossiping in forums, blogs, and articles written with falsehoods against me.
You see, as I have expressed before there are people who have nothing better to do then sit around attempting to start fights with people. The very moment I stepped into the net I've been in the public eye. Just like celebrities, the more in the public eye they are the more they are securitized. I'm ok with this, always have been. If someone's picking on me, or gossiping about me they are leaving someone else alone. Plus it's free press. I am picked on and gossiped and lied about because God knows I can take it. I'm strong, at one point I wasn't, and had the abuse I've been getting had been done then, I'd not be here today. But God brought me through it all.
I have friends from when I first stepped online, how many could say that if they were such horrible people? I have real life friends, one for over 20 years now, and if I was a horrible person would I have those and even for that long? I have over 2000 members of Annika's and over 1500 of the newsletter. Once again, if I was horrible why do so many praise, thank and even follow me? I have nothing to be ashamed of, and I'm completely honest online. So why is it these people can only pick on the fact I'm a Christian? Because they have nothing else to attack me with. Why? Because I'm no longer the open book I use to be, so they don't know ANYTHING about me other then I spend a lot of time helping others, and telling it like it is.
There is this person in my family who doesn't know their siblings anymore. They think merely because they email or call they are close. This couldn't be further from the truth. This person has written downright sinful smut filled lies about me. And the funny thing is, I will always have the proof of the emails burned to CD, DVD, and any other format that comes along. This person has always been jealous of me, and I will never understand that. Everyone that knows this person is sickened by everything she has ever done, yet no one will say anything to her. Instead for some crazy reason, they ALL complain to me about her. Out of sheer embarrassment I will not mention the horribly rude things said, plus unlike her, I won't air her dirty laundry, she does enough of that with posting of her nudes on myspace. I admit I desperately want to smear her name. I wouldn't say good name because she's already made a bad name for herself online with loads of companies. And that's the thing, she doesn't need my help to prove to everyone she's downright trouble and karma is getting her big time. Everytime she gets involved with anything it turns to crap. She wrote for AC, and then blames them for ruining her work, claiming all the typos are them. (because she can do no wrong.) She claims the neighbors threw a brick at her head, and she never ever did anything wrong to them. LMFAO That story kills everyone up here with laughter as we darn well know, she causes ALL the trouble she gets, and deserves it too. So, as I said, I need not need to do a single thing. God protects me, and her writings continue to express the mental status of herself. When at last she is finally dead and gone, I will miss all the fame she brings me. Writing poems about how much she loves me and treasures me, and then back stabbing me every chance she gets, and of course controlling her kids sending them after me too. MPD. I am the center of her attention, and apparently always will be. What a blessing and an honor, I am so very much loved. I feel all warm inside. (She proved it by just now sending me a gift on facebook telling me I'm the center of her attention, awwwwww.)
So I ask, how exactly and why do I have to be stopped from helping people? Ask yourself the question when you read someone's gossip, and lies, are you getting the full story, or what the person wants you to hear? I share all my sins because I'm far from perfect. I see my flaws, and try to fix them. I share them with others out of the hope of help. You read a blog entry, posting, or article and assume the word is true. Perhaps to the person that wrote it, it is. But the person it may be about, might hold the other half of the story. Seek both before you post, reply, assume, attack, or sympathize with ANYONE. For you may be lead down a path to hell. Because, the person I spoke of in this entry claims to be a Christian, facts speak for themselves. She's no more saved then Hitler.
Now that I have addressed this issue, I will not have to address it again. This is why I do not have drama in my life. I address the issue and move on, only Lot's wife looks back, and look what happened to her. 9/17/2008 Updated DisclaimersI've updated the disclaimers on here and my myspace accounts, as the drama that's going on for some reason, my sister always tries to drag me into, as though I care. First and foremost, simply because we are related doesn't mean we are friends. We are acquaintances, nothing more. Why do I feel this way? Because true family (everyone but her) I don't have to walk on eggshells around, worry about if I said something one of her personalities twisted it or / and wonder who of her personalities or kids she's going to send to say rude stuff to me. I don't have the time to dedicate to reading each and every single email to her and from her over and over again to make sure she's not going to twist it. I'm done. I've already been ignoring 99% of her emails, I guess it's time to crank it up to 100%.
I've been painting the house inside and out since the end of June (yes it's a huge house). This is why I've not had time to dedicate to posting entries. I can barely keep up with Annika's, and I'm only keeping up with that site because SO many rely upon it and they indeed deserve my time.
Also updated news, my sisters child abuse myspace got closed, but she made another.
Previously posted: 8/16/2008 7/8/2008 Yes Virginia, I do have an egoI've updated the FAQ on Annika's and feel pretty darn good about it. It's a comment that comes across my path at least once a year. The amazing thing is, it's always mentioned by a low self esteemed woman, never a man. I also find it interesting it only ever comes about when I ban a member. Gee, I wonder who sent the comment... duh I'm so stupid I have no idea.
You seem to act as if you know it all, why is that? Because I do, LOL. Seriously though, I've been doing this since 1999, and I do know what I'm talking about as my reputation shows. If I seem to have an ego about it, it might be because I do. I educate myself, where as some people don't bother at all, and just follow the crowd. I'm a leader, and leaders need to know it all in order to lead. If I wasn't, why does Annika's have so many members, and readers of the newsletter? I'm proud of my work, and if more people were proud of their work, perhaps there would be fewer complainers in the world. I do listen to other's experiences and ideas, just as they listen to mine; it's how we all learn. I've always been open minded to others, always will be. It's why Annika's has thrived. This does not mean I'm saying I'm perfect because I'm not. This also doesn't mean I'm not willing to listen to others. Anyone that has taken the time to talk to me, knows full well I do. Added to this, my staff is EXTREMELY intelligent individuals. I'd be lost without them. It's their experiences that have added to the site as well. -------- When you do something you love, it shows, and people will get jealous of your work. They will try to put you down, because they have no self-respect, they cannot respect another's work if they can't respect themselves. I happen to be truly blessed with a brain like a sponge. I love learning, and if I don't learn something new everyday, I feel that day has been totally wasted. I'm blessed with the knowledge, and put it to use. If someone is upset by that, move on, obviously you are too good to be blessed by me, and hey that's ok. It's your right to not take any advice offered, it's also your loss not mine. Now that this issue has been addressed, I can ignore it when it comes in, yet another time saver. Thank you again God. 6/22/2008 UpdateI've been working extremely hard on expanding Annika's, added 2 new pages, one really helps members out with a daily event listing they should check out.
I'm also working on my third book. I put aside the second one.
I've also picked up another website to design but unfortunately, the gentlemen appears to be rather busy so it's taking a heck of a lot longer then it should.
I've had 2 huge Christian events happen to me in one week. One I can't share in this blog. And the other event was a past client who was into dark magic and witchcraft got saved!!!! He's totally turned his life around closing his center, and opened up a new one dedicated to the love of God. I feel so blessed that they contacted me again to share their story with me, and ask me once again to be a part of their project. I know what you are thinking, why if they were into that, was I a part of their project? Well, because I prayed about what they asked me to do. There was no bad language, and nothing against Christ. I put my faith in God that what was going to be done with it, was for the good. And, it was. It's now on Youtube, though I feel without the background the story will go missed.
Below is the background and information:
Christian metal project in which a girl is in search of God but ends up in the devils grasp through witchcraft in the end through her own suicide brings the person who brought her to witchcraft into the light of Christ, it is a very powerful message of Satan's grasp and God forgiveness. The song is "Final lullaby" by Kafabee. The video takes place at the beginning of the story where the girl runs from fears of commitment to faith and is caught by the devils spell.
I've also been painting, and washing walls too, which has prevented me time to do a blog entry. OH and dwarfy has joined the family! She's white with red eyes. Now Hammika isn't all alone now.
Love and stuff,
Amy Lynn 6/17/2008 What Ever Happen To Television Sitcom Shows by Amy LynnPosted 7/23/2007 ABC, CBS, and NBC seem to have all changed into the game network, if there is such a thing. I can’t understand who would want to come home after a long day of work and instead of watching a TV show like CSI want to watch someone else play Bingo. What is with the craze of watching people play games? Are we that bored with life that there is nothing better to do than to watch a bunch of other people win money? Are we dreaming or pretending it’s us up there playing and winning or losing? I can understand when it’s something where you actually learn something but watching someone play bingo is almost as interesting as watching grass grow. You learn NOTHING! When did we become the family that use to sit around playing board games, to the family that watches them? On the cover of a Monopoly box it doesn’t look like the family is watching TV, or that there’s even a TV in the room. I long for the days when I turned on the TV and could sit down with a glass of wine and watch someone solve a crime, or someone save a life. It’s either reality TV or game shows. You’d think with cable internet and TV shows being shown online, that these top channels would provide wholesome entertainment for hard working American’s to come home to, instead of this trash and filth they are filling our minds with, creating mindless zombies who have nothing better to do than watch bingo! Aren’t American’s picked on enough for being fat, lazy and stupid? Now we have the choice to watch things that help make all those comment true?! I don’t think so, it’s time to fight back against the powers that be. The powers that be that cancel such shows as Star Trek, M.A.S.H. , Stargate,… I realize what this all is, is money. The cable networks are paying the standard networks to not promote good viewing and that way people have to pay higher cable bills in order to see good movies and decent reruns. Whatever happened to Saturday night being movie/family night? I haven’t seen a family movie listed on the basic cable channels on weekends in years. Do the networks and advertisers stop to think for one moment, that they are promoting illegal downloads because nothing is on worth watching? When you put a person in a box they want to break out, think outside the box and by this I mean the same as the cable box. We shouldn’t be forced into going down to the local video shop and we sure shouldn’t keep putting up with getting into TV shows simply to have them cancelled because of poor ratings. There are other things on no one is watching and they have been running for years. I’m fed up with getting involved in story lines, emotionally attached to characters simply to have the show cancelled without even a chance to tie things up, all for the almighty dollar. Am I to believe Stalin was right, collapse the morals of a country, flood it with dope and you won’t even have to fire a shot and you can win a war. This country has been going downhill for some time now, it’s going to continue now with the help of cable and now lack of public entertainment. It may be true that they hold a big stabber with their satellites and broadcasting networks, the fact being they may have the power also to correct what has been going on in this country for sometime, and turn it back around into the country it use to be, instead of aiding in the moral demise. I don’t want to sound like I’m on soapbox it’s just the fact that anymore its hard to find anything on the TV worth setting down to watch. I hate to see the American people ripped off and being duped into what someone else feels is entertainment. Anyone with common sense would use the TV as a relaxation point in their day. I did just that, and that’s why I’m writing this, I can’t find anything worth my time nor money. I use to justify watching the TV as I wasn’t wasting my time, now I just turn it off. Is this the preemptive strike of the end of basic cable and public TV? 6/16/2008 Disrespectful Facebook usersMan I can't believe this, this is so annoying. I have entirely too many business contacts on facebook, and I've noticed how very few have any respect for others. I have made it clear on my profile to not send me invites, events, groups, applications ect. Why would I want all that crap on my profile?! So no one can read it? Where do these so-called business contacts think I get the time to go to their events, and join their groups from? One out of like 15 so far has actually been polite about it. If a person asks for something to stop, you stop. Plain and simple. Where is the respect with business connections on facebook? They are behaving like they are on Myspace! Behaving like ungrateful *******. The most shocking part is it's the British ones that are rude. When did the roles reverse?! LOL 5/17/2008 Truly Honored and Blessed (TV Show Heroes)I belong to several companies that subcontract my Voice Over Talent. One of them has just shared some huge news. Brea Grant, who is a part of this company with me, just was cast as Daphne (the speedster) on the TV Show Heroes. See the internet really has no limits on what God can bring us. I'm truly honored and blessed they came to me and I'm a part of it. 5/10/2008 My DeliveranceEver seen “The exorcism of Emily Rose”? Well because I’m not Catholic and never have been, we don’t call it an exorcism, we call it deliverance. You may not believe this, and that's ok because I totally admit I didn't believe in this type of thing either until it happened to me. I have to start with some background in order for you to fully understand. Please know I am very ashamed of my past, yet I am sharing this for a reason. All my life I have witnessed my mother manipulate men all for the mighty dollar. After all it's hard to pay bills with 4 kids and only 1 working parent. I never thought anything of her doing this. But little did I know, I was learning from her example, just as my sister was as well. The power and control to get men to buy you anything, use them, abuse them and then let them go when they out used their purpose. It was a game and it was fun or at least that's where it started. Growing up abused I never really noticed till I got my own life how much of a control freak I was. Abused kids tend to grow up controlling everything out of fear of being abused again. Control being a natural defense and some what a power kick. Never getting hurt because everything and everyone was controlled, even those that one knows wasn't controlled I had twisted the outcome to be exactly what I wanted or expected. It's a hard life let me tell you that. And there is very little room for fun. I never knew I had an issue with control I mean I knew everything in my life was nicely controlled but not that it was something wrong. Not until one day I went to a prayer meeting with my aunt and cousin. We sat around in a circle. And I was right next to a pastor, whom I never met in my life. We bowed our heads and began praying for anything and everything we could think of. Then the pastor turned to me and told me things only *I* knew. This freaked me out a bit and I wanted to run to the door. I could feel fighting within me. And the pastor put his hands on my back and he and the group began to pray for me. I felt something within begin to move. My stomach was doing flips, my head was spinning and there was a lump in my throat. He prayed harder and then I spoke about something being stuck in my throat. He put his hands on my throat and prayed hard. I thought for sure I was going to puke. But when I opened my mouth, nothing came out but what I felt was the lump. It would be many months before I came to understand exactly what had happened. But it was instant I felt the results and everyone around me noticed them as well. I instantly felt weak and a shamed. I didn't understand why I felt this way till later. When slowly but surly things were brought before my eyes. I no longer had my shield of control. I new emotions like a child to deal with. Things that never came through my shield before and I had no idea how to deal with it. And words can not express how this felt. I had learned after reading a book that I had been delivered from a spirit called "Jezebel." Named after Queen of Israel Jezebel Married to King Ahab. See this link for more info on just how horrible she is. http://latter-rain.com/eschae/jezebel.htm (please keep in mind most of this is a persons opinion added in.) What I read was solely based on the Bible. Typically, such spirits gain their influence through pre-conversion sin. They are tenacious, and they must be exposed and expelled. The Christian can thus be "demonized" (Greek) "have a spirit") but not "possessed." Possession connotes a totality of ownership and control incompatible with the eternal ownership of a soul by God. So as you can see, though I was saved, I was still demonized. I was doing what I didn't know was wrong. Even to this day a year and a half later from my deliverance I am learning new things. And fighting control issues to this day as I never again want to be in control again. The whole idea makes me sick and my stomach hurts even now typing this, just as it will when rereading it. Due to personal reasons and MSN page length, this has been cut down 5/9/2008 Girl Sued by Ghost Attorney?Who would threaten to sue someone with the name of a dead attorney? Added
to that why would they threaten to sue claiming their attorney is going to get a
hold of you when ANYONE who has ever dealt with an attorney KNOWS that that's
not how it works LOL. Any attorney will tell you to keep your mouth shut, that I
do know, because I DO have one, three actually, and one on retainer in
England. You see when you actually do start legal proceedings, your attorney ORDERS you to cease and desist all communication, as that's why you hired the attorney, as well as its in the documents they have you sign, unless your attorney is dead, made up or a crook. I can't believe that someone who doesn't want everyone to know the truth would go to the lengths of threatening me with lies and self pity, and then have the nerve to attempt to attack me for being a Christian, if a person can't tell the truth why are they even attempting to touch my faith?! |
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